Chasing my tail

Alright, here comes the little white flag.

"I don't know which way I'm supposed to spin in this circle"

Birds of Tokyo

Life is getting a little karazay! I'm working 10-12 hour days at the office, feel like I am a gazillion hours behind on study, failed our budgeting this cycle and missed a car payment (ooops), not getting to the gym (so feeling sluggish), wearing pants & long sleeve tops because I keep forgetting to shave (YES, I know) and so the list goes on.

So what now?

I could go home and eat 5 slices of wedding cake and think my life is horrid or I can make a clear pathway to stability again (and maybe still eat some cake). Self pity is good every now and then, our inner child needs a bit of coaching and a pat on the back to say "yes I know you're so tough and brave" but too much leads to the old 'I'm stuck in a rut'.

Rach at In Spaces Between, nailed it today with her post on creating your own luck, which is something pretty powerful and within your control. Luck is about making the most of opportunities that come your way, putting yourself out there, being open and receptive to identify and grab it!

So the white flag is packed away and now as I sit at the dark end of the day I'm feeling good. I'm optimistic about tomorrow, that all the hard work on the current agenda will soon find moderation again. 

Life comes in peaks and troughs. The troughs makes us appreciate and savour the peaks just that little bit more. 

Even though I am working big hours at the office, it is actually inspires me to do the best job possible (I'm an all in or all out kind of person), because when you love what you do it doesn't feel like work at all. Which is even more true when I study for Graphic Design, the homework actually feels like 'guilty downtime' it is so much fun. I'm currently learning different drawing applications and about to start painting! The other great thing about working big hours is seeing Ray's caring side at its best.

One of my favourite quotes is 

Nothing worthwhile comes easily

This quote comes to me all the time, while doing a hard gym workout, sticking to a budget and NOT buying that gorj new cardi or like my current situation, working big hours to get a project over the line. 

Now it's your turn, what gets you going and staying on top, I would truly love to hear it!